STIMMING 🧩😬

 Sometimes when I’m around people 

In public or in the comfort of my home 

Around my family 

I have certain stems that happen 

Not because of anxiety or anything 

Like that

They usually just happen randomly 

Sometimes I’ll shake my legs 

When I’m sitting down in the chair 

Usually means super focused 

On something and I’m just trying to 

Concentrate on something 

Sometimes I’ll be in deep thought 

Sometimes thinking about something 

Or not thinking about anything at all 

Or I’ll bite the inside of my cheek 

Not to make a mark 

I just put my tongue between my teeth 

And hold it in the side of my mouth 

And then I’ll start shaking my legs 

And that’s then I’m usually 

Super focused usually on my phone 

Or my computer or just sitting somewhere 

But mostly just sitting scrolling on phone 

Not necessarily noticing I’m stemming 

Until after a few minutes I see myself 

Doing it then I stop

And sometimes I’ll crack my knuckles 

And tap my foot

Or when I get excited 

I’ll sway my arms back and forth

If I’m talking to someone 

Which that one I try to hide

Because I get embarrassed 

Sometimes when I do that

One time I did that to mom

When we were having a conversation 

And I got really excited 

about a particular topic 

And it happened 

And she wasn’t even judging me 

Or anything

She just smiled at me 

And asked me if I was excited 

And I said yes 

But inside I was a little bit embarrassed 

That I did that

But the swaying arms

Didn’t happen again

It doesn’t usually happen 

Because i try to mask it

But I’m always happy and excited 

Because I love to laugh 

But I try to stem in private 

And sometimes I talk to myself 

Just like my brother does 

It’s my sense of vulnerability 

But yeah those are my stems

That happens throughout the day

They happen every so often 

As well as being on the Spectrum 

And also having ADHD

And other disorders 

My stimming is 

-David Gillespie